Returning to blogger... AGAIN! xP

Hey everyone! I'm back to blogging again! It's been sooooo long since I updated this page. I even printed this daily planner to remind me to blog daily! Hahas!



Cute planner right? XD

Well, just to summarise what would be going on in this new year:

Year 1 Sem 2 is starting next week. Excited about school again!
I'm starting to learn the guitar. But through youtube and without formal instruction of course. I spent most (well, all actually) of my money remodelling my room. xP
I've been eating too much chocolate lately and drinking lesser water than ever.
Getting fatter as the days go by, although my weight is surprising the same. I really need to get some exercise!
Hopefully I get to go to Korea around mid-year for the Language Immersion Programme! Although I have friends in Korean class, it seems like I'm irritating them or something.. 'Cause they don't seem to like texting me.. :(
I changed the cbox here. Hopefully less spammers will appear. :)
The music is not playing... Hmm.. I wonder why...

Anyway! Let's start this new year 2012 happily! Aim for a successful year! Hopefully get a boyfriend. Hehehe. xP

And.... That's it! Will be updating alot tomorrow night after a full day at Universal Studios Singapore and after Bidding Round 2B which will decide the fate of my Japanese 1 module. Good luck to me! And everyone else, of course! xD

New School New Life

I'm finally in university. But I'm not sure whether I'm actually enjoying it. For one thing, Chemistry is really difficult, so is Japanese Studies which I can't really cope with writing all the essays and projects. This is the one and only time I'm taking a module like this. I really have to take a writing module to improve my writing skills, seriously. New friends I made were almost all females. I need some males in my life. It's just too boring talking girl stuff all the time. Guy stuff are interesting too. I like listening to guy stories, sounds way cooler than girl stuff could ever get. But then again, who wants to be telling personal life stories to a complete opposite stranger who likes weird stuff like corpses and pathology? And I need a study buddy, desperately. I CANNOT study on my own. I need Yingjun back! Or someone else who can stay with me and make me look at my work seriously... I like the days where YJ would be serious about studying and I'd automtically get fired up too. I miss those times. Not sure if this is a good start in a new school, but I hope I can get myself fired up enough to get a 4.00 CAP. Add oil!!!

Great Books

Yo all!~ Just here to post a reminder. Otherwise, forgetting these good book titles and authors would be such a pity. :)


Regeneration by L.J. Singleton (Woodlands Library has the full set of five books)
Internet Detectives by Michael Coleman (a little outdated on the 'internet' part, but cool story)
Holy Moly I'm a Dead Dude by C.M. Hopkins (cheesy story hahas)
Spy High Series by A.J. Butcher (cool gadgets and sort of futuristic)
Talisman Quartet Series by Allan Frewin Jones (cool and cute >< but the series is re-categorised into the junior section)


Yeah, that's all I remember for now. Good luck on finding these books! Hahaha!

Emotional Day..

Today.. has been a truly emotional day. I'd bet that this emotional roller coaster is going to be brought forward till tomorrow and the days after until who knows when..

It all started when this really cool (but seriously not hot) guy asked me out.. and at the same time.. a very precious friend of mine is keeping secrets from me.. The latter, made me really excited and really scared at the same time.. But in the end, I decided I didn't want to date him, because of various factors that I can't really say online..

Well, what really screwed my feelings inside out is that this precious friend, whom I will never think of as more than family, confessed his love for me.. And I have got to say that although I was kind of expecting it since I did notice some of the signs, I was still shocked and scared out of my wits..

My mind's a blur.. All I can think of is how I hurt him by the way I acted when he held my hand.. I pulled away.. And I can still hear his voice.. Calling me.. And I told him to leave..

I feel extremely bad.. I don't know why I did what I did, but I was on the verge of breaking.. I have no idea why.. It's just too much to handle.. I"m really sorry for that. I'm really sorry for hurting him. He's family.. I warned him.. I really tried.. I seriously hope his affection for me is just puppy love and nothing more. I really hope he will find someone better in his life next time..

But I have today to thank for as well.. Today, I felt sad.. For the first time in my entire life, I vividly remember the feeling of sadness. How that feeling can break my heart and tear it into pieces everytime he apologised..

Haha.. Why is my blog always about sad stuff? It shouldn't be pink anymore.. Should have made the background black instead.. Well, this is just to vent my frustrations.. I hope no one reads this and chide me about this.. I don't want to relive this again.. I'm writing this to remind myself of what I could have done instead of what I did..

LoVe HuRtS

Edgy..

I am seriously freaking out here! I don't know why, but I'm freaking out over no one reply my texts. And I feel fidgety and nervous and edgy every minute that I don't get a reply. It's been 2 hours since I received a single text and I feel freaking anxious here! Just need to vent.. But apparently it isn't working...!

Good News FTW!

Today, I'm just going to talk about happy things. Although it's Good Friday and it always rains on this day every year (trust me, this comes from observation), today's rain represents tears of joy for me.

During such a solemn occasion, I'm meeting up with my high school classmates, especially with one of my bffs - yingjun!, which is a wonderful event today! Furthermore, today is also the day I found out that I have been accepted into NUS' Faculty of Science!!!!! Is this part of my dream come true or what?!!

Well, now is the time when I can say that the storm of uneasiness in my heart has resided and rainbows of joy and excitement are showing up at every corner in my soul. This is the feeling of starting anew and a reminder not to make the same mistakes of my past.

iNsPiRiNg yAnTiiNg

Must-Read ManHwa!!

Yo people! I'm back!

I just wanted to post this as a reminder for myself. But, this can also be a sort of an advertisement for you guys ans girls out there who wishes to read an amazingly well-written manhwa.

I just read a manhwa titled Love In The Mask written and illustrated by Han Yu-Rang. It is absolutely the BEST manhwa from Korea in my opinion.

It's story is about a girl, Suh Hyun-Bin who is forced to live her life as a boy from young to survive. Although I don't really agree with her mentality that 'living a sucky (she didn't say sucky, but I can't remember the exact word) life is better than dying free', I think I can understand why she would think that way. After all, she's doing everything she can just to survive and see her friends happy.

The story is so sad. It's just... Sad.. After she falls in love with the first guy she met whose ability was on par with hers, she was forced to pair him up with the girl she was bodyguarding.. Sad, isn't it?

Now, at the around chapter 98, Hyun-Bin has to pretend to be captured by gangsters and live like them for 9 years. Currently only 1 year has passed and she has to put up with beatings almost everyday.. I sympathise with her..

Call me masochistic, but I kind of want to be like her.. Although her life sucked miserably, she stays strong. And that is the trait that made so many people fall in love with her (3.5 guys to be exact, 'cause 1 of them didn't know what he was feeling towards Hyun-Bin, so he's a .5 :P) and want to protect her. Even though most of them didn't know she was a girl, I think they felt that she had a feminine side. And that was just too romantic but sadly theycan't be together because Hyun-Bin has to be a guy in order to survive..

What I like most about her that made me want to be like her is her strength. Both physical and mental strength. She and Bi-Rak are the most admirable characters of this story. They both had miserable pasts where they could only watch as their loved ones die. Now, they have to be heartless in order to survive although now the two of them are like brothers-in-arms. I admire the relationship between the two of them. Just each other's presence alone can make them feel much better when they are experiencing down moments. And Bi-Rak is always teaching Hyun-Bin never to expect that anyone would be there to help her, because in the real gangster world, no one would help and no one would care.

Sad life, sad story. But it's somewhat true, isn't it? Things like these do happen, even if it's not as dramatic as this manhwa..

Thus, my enlightenment from this post is:
I want to become stronger. So strong that I will not lose. No matter what happens, I will not fall because I am the wall that surrounds and protects my palace of friends.

iNsPiRiNg yAnTiiNg